holly
Apr21-04, 02:47 PM
I wish I could write this anonymously. Please do not look at my name.
I asked you not to look.
Several people on the board mentioned the subservientchicken website. Curious, I went to it, and have been pretty depressed since.
I would like to know if anyone else has had this experience of finding out something wretched about oneself, something shocking, something that acted as the trigger to finding out you're not what you thought you were.
I was asking the chicken to do various tasks, such as "read a book," "stand on couch," and so forth. It was so cute!
Then, I said "I love you, Chicken!" to him. He went up close to the screen, and I *thought* he did a "Hook 'em Horns" sign at me. I detest UT, the Longhorns...why I thought the chicken knew this, I have no idea now.
This is where I found out that instead of being practical-minded, I am cynical-minded, and can never trust myself again. I've never been one to do anything mean. Lots of people evidently have urges to do mean things, like step on a cat's tail, kill a ladybug, say something cruel. But I've felt very, very lucky I never wished to do mean things.
This is the horrible part: I FOR SOME HORRIBLE REASON TOLD THE CHICKEN TO "DIE."
And he did.
HE HAD NOT DONE THE "HOOK 'EM" SIGN, HE HAD DONE THE ***I LOVE YOU*** SIGN LANGUAGE SIGN. Too late, I realized this.
Well, I urge you to stay off of that site. I am really rethinking what kind of person I am. And thanks for listening. I'm sad I turned out to be a bad person, an untrustworthy person. Has anyone ever been able to come back from finding out a fatal flaw??? I really don't trust my heart now. I have been crying for hours and I have to go on shift in a few minutes. I wonder what horrible other things are lurking just beneath my supposedly nice surface.
I asked you not to look.
Several people on the board mentioned the subservientchicken website. Curious, I went to it, and have been pretty depressed since.
I would like to know if anyone else has had this experience of finding out something wretched about oneself, something shocking, something that acted as the trigger to finding out you're not what you thought you were.
I was asking the chicken to do various tasks, such as "read a book," "stand on couch," and so forth. It was so cute!
Then, I said "I love you, Chicken!" to him. He went up close to the screen, and I *thought* he did a "Hook 'em Horns" sign at me. I detest UT, the Longhorns...why I thought the chicken knew this, I have no idea now.
This is where I found out that instead of being practical-minded, I am cynical-minded, and can never trust myself again. I've never been one to do anything mean. Lots of people evidently have urges to do mean things, like step on a cat's tail, kill a ladybug, say something cruel. But I've felt very, very lucky I never wished to do mean things.
This is the horrible part: I FOR SOME HORRIBLE REASON TOLD THE CHICKEN TO "DIE."
And he did.
HE HAD NOT DONE THE "HOOK 'EM" SIGN, HE HAD DONE THE ***I LOVE YOU*** SIGN LANGUAGE SIGN. Too late, I realized this.
Well, I urge you to stay off of that site. I am really rethinking what kind of person I am. And thanks for listening. I'm sad I turned out to be a bad person, an untrustworthy person. Has anyone ever been able to come back from finding out a fatal flaw??? I really don't trust my heart now. I have been crying for hours and I have to go on shift in a few minutes. I wonder what horrible other things are lurking just beneath my supposedly nice surface.