eNtRopY
Jul5-03, 01:58 PM
I am a lonely man in a galaxy of empty pleasures.
Nothing makes me happy anymore.
Sex and drugs do not eliminate my suffering.
They only prolong my realization of suffering to a latter time.
Sometimes I think should kill myself, but I can't really justify doing so.
And I don't know why.
I have mission I should embark on.
I have a mission I must embark on.
My problems will be solved when my mission is complete.
Except that I don't know what my mission is.
And I'm beginning to think that it's actually not a mission, but just an equation that I must solve.
It is the longest equation in the universe.
It is infinitely long in extent, and it is probably transcendental as well.
It is pointless for me to think about it.
I will never find the solution.
I will just sit here staring blanking over the control deck into the vastness of space.
Maybe I'll get lucky.
Maybe I'll lose that part of my mind which reminds me how truly disapointing the experience of life is.
I am Han Solo.
eNtRopY
Nothing makes me happy anymore.
Sex and drugs do not eliminate my suffering.
They only prolong my realization of suffering to a latter time.
Sometimes I think should kill myself, but I can't really justify doing so.
And I don't know why.
I have mission I should embark on.
I have a mission I must embark on.
My problems will be solved when my mission is complete.
Except that I don't know what my mission is.
And I'm beginning to think that it's actually not a mission, but just an equation that I must solve.
It is the longest equation in the universe.
It is infinitely long in extent, and it is probably transcendental as well.
It is pointless for me to think about it.
I will never find the solution.
I will just sit here staring blanking over the control deck into the vastness of space.
Maybe I'll get lucky.
Maybe I'll lose that part of my mind which reminds me how truly disapointing the experience of life is.
I am Han Solo.
eNtRopY