Godb4religion

I need an answer. I've never been able to do suicide because I was always told I would go to hell. I've attempted it since I was five. I have been blessed with a wonderful life. I just never have been able to understand people and get along with people for very long. I seem to always be on the defense and always feel like I'm being backed into a corner. I don't feel like I belong ANYWHERE. If I talk about suicide I just get the biased "don't do it" **** and worry about people thinking its a cry for sympathy. Its like taking my life isn't my choice, it's only everybody else's choice. There's never any pro's only con's. I can't talk to anybody because they only talk about surviving. They're always biased. I'm just a soul, struggling to find peace. Anyone have answers?