Stuck in a rut; the bad kind.

turbo

Certainly. I don't think she would have swung that way, but if she had met another female hottie that absolutely loved dogs...well, who knows? Her parents would have been fine with it, anyway. It would be hard to imagine a more supportive and open-minded set of parents (at that time of her life).

Edin_Dzeko

OP, careful what you wish for.

Mépris

I thought I'd let you guys know how this panned out.

I didn't end up getting a pet, although I do think having a dog would have been great. It's more for reasons of me not being so sure where I'd be in the following months/year. Maybe when/if I get my own place someday? Would be cool to live in the countryside, near a river, with two huskies!

I looked into volunteering and didn't find much to do with animals *but* I started teaching some children at some "centre" (hate the prick who's behind it; looks/sounds like too much of a phony; won't get into it; but I'm staying for the kids although I considered walking away and focusing on the children near home) and also right down the street where I live. It's a rather satisfying experience. I've had very bad days where even getting out of bed feels like such a drag but when I did get to them, it was great. I really have to be on top of my game if I want them to learn anything and I like that about the job.

I also can't seem to be able to manage my studies very well. I feel pretty bad about it. I don't find it particularly engaging and am only sticking with it because I have to. The good news is that it will be over by the end of May. I also have some days where I study a sufficient amount but it's just "sufficient". Eventually, I'm getting things done but it's just the bare minimum.

A friend of mine told me a "story" of someone who dropped out of uni/college and went to China to teach English to kids there. I actually think quitting everything and doing something like that (perhaps get some kind of certification first; might help me in getting re-acquainted with English in a formal manner) might make me much happier but in the long run, I think I will regret this and think to myself that I should have just gone on to college and majored in physics/maths like I planned to. Nothing is happening. Nothing at all. It's all a lot of "dittos".

I used to write a fair bit (simple fiction with crude, juvenile "humour" - have a post on a blog, if anyone's interested) but having no adventures does not seem to help me with not "writing the same stuff just using different words". For the past few weeks, my plan was to go to college, figure out how to be rich, retire at 50, then go to grad school and do science till I drop dead. Right now, I think maybe not planning at all, going to China or Japan, teach English instead of trying to be rich, meet lots of cool people (heck, the last time I met a nice girl was nearly a year ago...and she asked me for FB, which I didn't have), have fun, learn new things and then start college. (or maybe do a degree part time with the Open University!)

My apologies if that's too explicit and boring. I'll try tl;dr it tomorrow morning if no one has replied.

jim hardy

Take an eveming education course. That'll surround you with people who are improving their lot.

Borek

I am replying, just to let you know I read your post. And I am glad to hear you were able to change something in your life

nucleargirl

I was in a rut too. then I had to get a job cos I had no money left and so I worked in a bakery. It turned out to be a hellhole and made me realise how bad I could have it if I didnt sort myself out. I didnt want to be stuck there my whole life so I start studying again. and now its good.