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Danger, are you out there? I haven't seen you lately mate, just thought I'd check up with all the injuries/ mishaps lately.
DaveC426913 said:We should move to a "dead man" system. Report in once a week or someone will automatically come looking for you.
Danger said:That might be a pretty good idea, considering how much we seem to care about each other. (It would simplify dealing with Woolie. )
Okay, I'm going to lay it out while I have a bit of functionality going on. I've told Tsu, and she's been very supportive, but there's no secrecy involved; I just figured that she'd have the best medical background to understand. I know that a few others like Moonbear, Astro, Doc Toxin, Adrenaline, etc. would probably have the same academic understanding, and others are savvy enough to understand, but I just didn't want to cause unnecessary worry.
The joking personna of being a serious alcoholic has unfortunately become reality. I had some tests done that showed an abnormality in my liver function. I am in a so-far unsuccessful attempt to give up drinking. The time that I have not been posting is the time that I've been sober. Obviously, that means that I'm three sheets to the wind right now. (Canada Day celebration, so how could I refuse.)
I don't know if it's a normal reaction to alcohol withdrawal, but I can't think in a straight line or concentrate long enough to follow more than a couple of posts without a beer. This is certainly not something that I'm proud of, and no youngsters in the crowd should take this as a sign that it's okay to drink... just the opposite. The drink has ruined me to the point that I now find it hard to function without it. Tsu very truly pointed out to me that it will kill me even faster than my smoking while I have emphysema.
I have to stop, and it will be very difficult given my social situation. I think about PF all day, every day, and feel terrible that I don't participate as much as I want to. I just haven't had anything to contribute.
Woolie, or anyone else with a 'project', please bring it on. As you all know, I have no education in anything, but I absolutely love trying to solve problems... especially if there are mechanical systems involved. Getting me involved with something like that can make things a lot easier for me. I might not be able to help you, but your giving me something to work on can definitely help me.
My biological family is huge, but my PF family means almost as much to me.
binzing said:Anything we can do to help?
Moonbear said:If you DON'T quit, I'm going to start praying for you every day, just to irk you.
Moonbear said:Hey Danger, thanks for sharing the explanation so we understand what's going on. Now that we know, we're certainly going to understand if you're not around so much if it means you're getting yourself healthier. Yes, that's all part of the withdrawal. Withdrawal is a real bugger, isn't it? Causes all the symptoms whatever you're addicted to USED to cause before you got addicted. Just give it time.
If you DON'T quit, I'm going to start praying for you every day, just to irk you.
Danger said:You're a nasty woman, Moonie... merely one of the reasons that I love you.
Stats, I am indeed a stubborn SOB when I'm fighting someone else; it's a bit different when I'm fighting myself. Still, I'm going to win; it just might take a while. It's very helpful to have the PF army backing me up.
What's weird is that W was an AADAC (Alberta Alcohol and Drug Addiction Commission) counsellor for 10 years, and has occasionally pestered me to quit... but every time that I've made it for a couple of days, she's decided to host a party or drag me off to the bar.
Danger said:Thanks, B. The smoking is even a different matter. I'm going to deal with the booze first, since that's my lesser addiction. I'd gone from 1 1/2 packs a day down to a pack a week, until the drinking escalated, an then it went back to almost 1/2 pack a day. The more I drink, the more I smoke. So, at least getting the easy one out of the way will make it easier to get over the other.
No matter how it goes, the support of everyone here is indescribably helpful.
And my apologies to those that I've not responded to personally. Patty, Integral... the rest of you... thanks to all.
Danger said:Lisa & Tsu;
Perfect responses from both. Lisa, that's pretty much the same thing that I would say to someone.
And Tsu, despite the theological differences, your sentiments are appreciated. It reminds me of when a very good young friend who went the Christian route after becoming involved with a girl that I was hanging out with (Christian) asked me if I would mind if they prayed for me. I certainly don't believe in that stuff, but it honours me that someone who does believe would do that for me .
And I hope that you don't mind that I mentioned our private communication. I should have asked you about that beforehand. On the other hand, I figured that it would only fall in with everyone's impression of what a caring and knowledgeable woman you are. I might have to do a bit more PM's for a while, since it's a struggle.
Danger said:Still, I'm going to win; it just might take a while.
binzing said:Aren't you a bartender? Thats definitely not a good influence.
I wouldn't say uneducated, but educated not through conventional channels. I've known some fine people who didn't finish high school, or if they did, didn't go to college, yet they still learned a lot - a craft, a skill, and a lot of street smarts. What counts is good hard and honest work!RonL said:Danger! you have always been an inspiration on this forum, and we share a lot in common, uneducated but very mechanical minded, I have been putting together a F-350, with trailer for carrying a Bobcat, and outfitted to the point of a complete mobile shop. In the Texas heat I have been enjoying an afternoon buzz on too much of a regular basis, and with what you have said, I will bring it to an almost complete stop. THANKS you are a FRIEND.
RonL