I studied calculus (equivalent to calc 2 perhaps) back in school last year but it was just procedure, patters and tricks. I wanted to do more so I picked up spivaks calculus and it's taking me far too long. It's been a week or two with some 5 hours almost everyday and I'm only in chapter 4. And they say that's the easy part. I would really like to stick to this because because I find it fun but I fear I'm too slow and wasting too much time. Do 'slow' learners get faster with time? Should I give up?