Editing is the essence of art, so your experience now with this will serve you well.right now I just started doing some freelance editing (I'm only 19; just getting started). Saving some money to produce my own shorts, build up a resume, take it from there.
I'm doing editing right now because it's what I'm most technically skilled and comfortable with, plus you get to work from home a lot of times with the whole digital thing going on now.
cinematography.com is a forum where I find most people know their stuff, and they have editing/audio/directing sections, so I usually go there for help.
A debilitating depression would not work for a moviemaker. It's a LOT of hard work... especially if you're producing your own films, starting out and don't have a resume... you have to take care of city permits, actors releases, finding a crew you can count on, etc. etc. etc. ... I don't see anyone in a very deep depression taking on such large projects.
Yesterday you were 20. How did you, today, become 19, and where can I get some?