Cognitively incompetent? Am I good enough? Recommendations? I am currently aged 18 and my life is in shambles. I rarely leave the house and I have lost the will to live. In a final attempt to fix my life, I have tried to figure out what I consider to be important to myself. Whatever isn't dead inside of me wants to pursue a bachelor's degree in the sciences as a way to redeem myself and quench my thirst for understanding. A few years ago my school adviser had me take the WAIS-III because she considered me to be an academic underachiever based on an earlier test (age 9). I was already being treated for depression during my later years of high school. After learning my score, I slid into a downward spiral of self-destructive behavior caused by perceived inferiority and despair. I incorrectly used the scores as verification. I withdrew from friends, family--I lost myself in fantasy novels and mentally exhaustive video games. I never took the SAT and I sabotaged university applications. I have added my IQ subtest scores for those who are interested. They are mediocre at best. http://pastebin.com/t0AeHTcR [Broken] Calculus appears to be the first stepping stone.... I will miss my window of opportunity if I delay any longer. If I cannot perform mathematically, I will be lost once again. I have my eyes set on placement exams for the January semester, but I am still mentally volatile. I need change, challenges, and no more charades. I'd appreciate undressed comments rather than false encouragement. Thank-you for your time.