I decided to become a scientist and its all I care about anymore. Consequently, I put all my time into this goal (meaning not just college time, my free time too) and I like doing that because I love science/technology related things. My brain wiring is not made for academia (I dropped out of high school at 15, I went back on got my high school diploma and got into a university chemistry course because I realized I have a passion for science) though, its made for practical matters so I learn far better by practice so I think I have to work much harder to do well in college. I'm in my 3rd year and we are doing internships and I only got a couple of interviews and got neither of the jobs. The people getting lots of interviews are the people who got good marks last year. I think I'd be far more fit for chemistry jobs than 95% of the applicants because I am so determined and am naturally skilled in practice matters and problem solving. Instead they give the jobs to people who are good with academic stuff. This disheartens me a bit. I intend on working as a chemist for a few years after getting my bachelors in order to gain real hands on experience before getting a PhD or masters or whatever so I can get into research fields. I'll also need to make money during this time period so I want to work as a chemist for a pharmaceutical company or something. Will I actually be able to get a good chemistry job when I have my degree though? I'm working like mad from now on so that I get good marks in my 3rd and 4th year but regardless of how hard I work, I don't conform well to the arbitrary system setup by universities so I think I have an unfair disadvantage and what I'm wondering is if my hard work will even pay off in the end.