Hi, I'm in my first year of engineering. To my disappointment, I've found that my curiosity to physics and math have died down over the weeks. I feel like I'm learning everything by rote - getting decent grades but not really understanding anything. The real learning comes from studying in the holidays. I hate it. Richard Feynman used to criticize this kind of studying. Einstein said it's a miracle curiosity survives formal education. Should I take a lighter load and study thoroughly? Do I have to compromise somehow? Please share some experiences.