Hi all, This has really been a difficult question for me to get through. So I need your help. I'm feeling like the walls are closing in and I need to find out what I want to do for the rest of my life~40 years more. I am an engineer in mid 20's with a master's degree in ME, working for a MNC currently. It was a very well spent learning time in my four years if engineering. I enjoyed learning stuff and building some stuff. Then I went for masters in ME. At the start of which I started to ponder over this question: Why I am doing this? Is this really what I want to do. I thought this because I really was performing as average student and the things I learnt(rather taught to me) were mostly theoretical/computational involving little or no pratical or design aspects...the thing I really enjoyed learning in my bachelors. So I thought then maybe I wanted to go and design and build stuff which I enjoyed in my bachelors and took up the job. The job is basically of a structural analysis engineer based on lifing gas turbine components. I think I don't like it because it's mundane, has less scope for creativity, no technical learning whatsoever (except for gaining expertise in tools).Take a model, mesh it, analyze it and get the results, repeat over again. No real understanding of the physics, no new knowledge gained, same old routine stuff to be done. But it has been two years in my job and still not a single day has passed by when I am jumping with joy to go to office. Also I think I have some tendency towards creative ideas because I have had given an out of box, idea or two in my job. Now I am again thinking of a Phd because it can offer me in a way new projects(in long term) and I am thinking of getting a Phd in non computational based area like robotics or may be applied mechanics (which has some theory, computation but with intent of solving a practical problem instead of a totally theoretical one). Of all these years (masters and job) one thing which I really enjoy and still do is to read basic physics, try and solve some interesting problems in it, and ask a lot of questions mostly: Why types. Ex: Why is creep a function of time?, How are ants able to walk on vertical walls and carry load much higher than their capacity? I like to dig into the details always. I won't leave a thing until I understand it completely and will keep digging deeper if I am not satisfied(craving for knowledge/understanding?) I like to discuss, sometimes feel for explaining ideas. Eg: Airfoil Stall I like to go to details and find out the most lucid explanation of phenomena: Eg: How airfoils work, create lift etc.. I also happen to still continue purchasing technical books(mostly basic physics and mechanics) and read them continuously(almost everyday). I also like to read about new technologies, ideas or research, discuss it and appreciate it. I also like to do hands on stuff to appreciate the things in better way. Over these two years in my job I think I've also become hesitant to say goodbye to it and latch onto something else. But in the part of the world where I stay the jobs in general are outsourced ones and thus happen to be based mostly on analysis. Most of my friends too have chosen Phd over job for this very reason. Sorry for the excessively long thread and thanks for taking out time to go through it. I really appreciate it. I would be thankful if someone can help me find what I am interested in doing...hopefully good at doing the thing for rest of my life. Thanks again.