Often when I ask questions in class, people laugh at them, so I stopped asking. What can I do? Am I more brain damanged than I think? I dont think university or any place is the place for me. I never see others or met others who talk or think like me, it makes me very angry and sad. Yesterday in class I asked why in terms of charge flow do we say power is absorbed across a circuit element when the voltage across positive to negative is > 0 and the positive current enters at the + terminal and leaves out the negative, everyone laughed.(WT...) I dont understand this aspect of circuit modelling (the logic behind it) and they did not even teach us about electric fields or other basic electromagnetics, so I am trying to learn abotu it myself. Its very hard to understand why but easy to apply, why are people learning things without understanding the concept behind it? I asked many of my classmates but they didnt understand. They laughed when I was carrying a book on physics because we dont even do basic physics. I also borrowed a book on algorithms even though we are learning C, I often need a lot of extra context to be motivated to study subjects and they really dont care about this stuff. I dont know what I really want in life I am often depressed or hyper but rarely stable and it hurts me because I am a burden on my family and everyone around me. They have invested in me heavily but I cant seem to give any kind of success in return. I studying economics for one year before dropping it, I was really passionate about it and liked the modelling in mathematics of those situations. . I would like to study mathematics but I am sure I would be crushed by the load. I know this post doesen't make sense but I am wondering if anyone has ever felth this way too? completely lost in life sometimes. Makes me angry!