im dumb. im seriously a dumb person and ive been in denial of this all my life. i failed high school but i brushed it off like "i didnt try" or i have "emotional intelligence". basically i kept saying to myself i didnt have book smarts but i had some "kind" of smart which is bullchit. it takes me ages to understand something...and when i finally do, i totally forget it within days.I pretty much have no memory.i dont know anything. seriously. im a freakin air head, sometimes it feels like i have this "fog" in my head that doesnt let me think or learn.In the labs im the slowest to learn,its like i cant engage my mind. my failure in high school was pathetic....sure i didnt care at the time and i never did homework ect but it was because it needed too much THOUGHT. i didnt wanna think, it hurt me and it still hurts me today to think. im horrible at solving problems, my mind just shuts off. i like to ponder, fantasize, imagine ect....but i HATE thinking in order to solve a problem or to learn something. now look whats happened. im dumb. I have a 2.2gpa in a major thats too hard for me.