<Moderator's note: language cleaned> I don't know if this is the right place to ask, but xxx it, I'm kind of desperate for advice. So basically, I am from a xxx in south america, where the education level is as low as it gets (high school and university too, takes 6 years to graduate from engineering for example) I decided two years ago that I am not studying in that xxx no matter what, so I started researching for scholarships and xxx, I wanted to go to europe or america but those were too expensive, so I applied to a scholarship that pays EVERYTHING for you, and its in Japan. So I studied by myself from the internet and other resources for about 10 months literally all day, and I did it,I got the scholarship. I am out of that xxx, that was last year (had to compete with 15000 students worldwide and I am the second one that got it from my country in the past 15 years, not bragging just showing how xxx my country is, 80 ppl get it from around the world) , now I am in japan in the "preparation year" stage. The thing is, and I know its my own xxxing fault but I still need some help on how to recover, since I passed the exams until I came to Japan I did NOTHING, so I forgot at least 80% of the things I have learned to pass (math, phys, chem, etc) even the basic xxx stuff, so I am sorrounded here by all these xxxing geniuses, some of them are even xxxing engineers, every one of them is elite level from their own country, they pretty much know a lot of xxx (only advantage I have is that I am really xxxing good at languages so in terms of learning japanese I am way more advanced, and thats a good thing since uni is in japanese but anyways) We have to learn jap, math, phys and chem all in japanese, and its hard xxx that I don't remember how to do, so I am having a xxx ton of problems. I have my first important set of exams in september and I am xxx, I have the whole month of august for vacations though and I can try to recover there but I don't know how (can anyone who has experience on this please guide me or help me on how to get ready for this, please, I know I am a selfish xxx and its my own fault but I can't help it) I am trying every day to study in my free time in english, the things I need to re-learn, but I simply don't have enough time because of classes, I am having classes from 8 am to 6pm everyday and I have language exams and other xxxxxx every single day, also infinite homework, so this is my last chance, I don't wanna ruin everything I worked so hard for, I dont wanna ruin my chance to get into a top uni in japan, so many people have such high expectations of me and I am a piece of xxx, more important than that I have my own expectations of me that I can't live up to and I know I am a dumb xxx. I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry for writing this here I just don't have anywhere else to consult. Thank you.