i feel like i'm going to school and learning nothing. i feel like my classes facsimiles of a real education. don't scoff but it never occurred to me to look at other textbooks than those assigned for my classes and now that i have i realize how ****ty the ones i've learned from have been. i feel like i want to drop out immediately, restudy all the classes i've taken using better textbooks and never settle for a subpar education again. but of course this isn't really feasible. yes from now on i can and will do this but i feel like my foundational classes were terrible and resultant education is poor.