I'm going to phoenix!! I finally did it!! i bought a ticket to phoenix just now! i've been like, i dunno... wow.... so i'm going to visit whozum over thanksgiving! the money is tight, but we're making it happen. i'm still not sure where i'll be sleeping, i can't afford much... and i don't even know how i'll be getting to the airport... but eh, i bought the tickets, so i'll make it work somehow!! i haven't even told him yet, he's off at an interview. when he left i said maybe i'd buy them officially tomorrow cause i was freaking out about actually committing to everythin.... ah wow! i'm totally crazy huh? but i'm doing it. non refundable tickets. so i have to go! i have a month to make myself all pretty and stuff and to buy nice clothes and make myself all appealing. EEK! its gonna be crazy. i have all sorts of things planned to do with him. we're gonna go to the drive-ins. and we're gonna go see Guadalupe, (a yaqui town, and i'm part yaqui and i've always wanted to get in touch with that stuff!) and we'll picnic and i have a few surprise things i want to do. i can't say here cause he'll read this all eventually! but oh wow!! i'm going!! wowow! i kinda thought it was just a crazy dream... but its real now. wow.... its gonna happen... wow!!