Just a bit of background before I start this thread: I'm was raised in an Orthodox Christian family but was recently introduced to the idea of atheism. I didn't really like the idea of atheism because I'd like to have a God in my life more than not...the idea of atheism was just disturbing because I found that all along I had no real proof of God's existence and I was just relying on my faith. So, I kept trying to find some kind of proof for God's existence or something tangible I can use to justify the 18 years I spent worshiping God...as you probably guessed, I failed. I couldn't find a proof against God's existence either so I decided to just stay a good christian like I was raised. Anyways, a few days ago I was looking at the alternatives again and I thought of the following: There are two possibilities...either God exists or not. Assuming that the best decision to make is the one that gets you the most good in the future, in the first case the best thing to do would be to just worship God and basically do nothing else (ie. become a monk in a monastery somewhere). That, according to my religion, would do me the most good furthest down the road. However, I'm don't think I'm going to do that any time soon. In the second case, where God doesn't exist, life just becomes a big mario game without a princess at the end. Why play the game if at the end all that is waiting for you is a huge hole that mario can't jump over? To get married and have children, get a good job, etc...? Then what? If you really think about the big picture it's just like saying: I know this mario game is unbeatable but I'm just playing because I want to get the mushrooms or something. What good are the mushrooms or the gold coins if you know you're heading right to that big hole and you will lose all of it anyways? All the things we are working for are just temporary..right? To me, it seems that the most logical thing to do is to try to have as much fun as you can while playing the game and when the game gets hard or boring or when you're just not having fun anymore you...quit. But then again, I don't think I'm going to do that any time soon. Both choices look kindda wrong and pretty depressing so I decided to just ignore what I thought of and keep going with the flow. I only considered those two cases because I'm really not interested in changing my religion to something else like Buddhism. It's either Christianity or Atheism for me. I just made this thread because I wanted to know what you guys think. Am I completely wrong? Am I just a bored college kid and when I get older my view of the world will change?