Don't listen when they tell you "KNOWLEDGE IS POWER." Knowledge, in the end, buys only fear, isolation, and sadness. Knowledge is darkness. Knowledge is sitting alone in the dark in your bedroom listening to wonderful music that you can't share with anyone because no one you know has ever heard of it. Knowledge is your girlfriend telling you she doesn't want you to meet her friends because they probably wouldn't like you because you're too clean cut. Because you wear the wrong clothes. ("Who shops at Banana Republic when they're 24 anyway?" she'll say.) Because you don't worry about how you're going to pay the rent next month like everyone else. Because they don't understand your problems, and, try as you might, you don't understand theirs either. Because you won't understand how anyone could enjoy ketamine. Listen to me. Knowledge is never fitting in. Knowledge is being misunderstood. Knowledge lets you see the future for the darkness that it really is. Should you ever want to understand one more equation, or read one more obscure novel, remind yourself that every symbol you recognize and every word you read separates you from everyone else. One day you'll put down the books and find yourself in the middle of a party, surrounded by drunk, high, beautiful women who don't like you because you don't care what happened on their favorite TV shows last night. You're going to wish to hell and back that you could care, but you can't, and they'll see it. No matter how hard you try, you'll always be different, and they'll always see it. One day you'll wish you could give up every clear thought, every gorgeous understanding you've won through all that hard work. You'll wish you could trade it all just to be normal. Just to fit in. But you can't. What's done is done. And you'll have to live with it forever.