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The main thing that I feel is that the deeper into math I've gone, the less interesting its become. Reading math on a lower-level (undergraduate analysis, even some topics in other areas of math) was really interesting to me as well as basic problem-solving (This year, I worked up to an honorable mention on the Putnam exam) but the deeper into graduate fields (complex analysis, stochastic mechanics, PDE's) I get the more boring this becomes, the less interested I get, and the more detached I am from studying.

It doesn't help that social life is infinitely more interesting than sitting in a basement writing proofs about stuff I can never see, or picture - and that as I get deeper and deeper my ability to connect math to reality (a strong point of how I worked with math earlier) has been disappearing.

This semester, I'm taking complex analysis and topology (the former at the graduate level, the latter at an honors level) and its been ridiculous with the amount of proofs I've had to write a week - normally, I've taken at most one "tough math class" like this, and had to go all-out a few nights a week to complete my work - now, it's like this every night. I feel that in complex analysis I'm unable to focus in class (it honestly just goes in one ear, out the other) and I'm completely bored with the material - I'm just skimming sections, using it to solve problems, and not actually learning/internalizing anything.

I'm concerned, one because I'm not sure if I'm going the right path - do I really, really want to be a mathematician (my economics major is not as interesting, but I haven't gone as deep there, it's been more of a side major) - or do I want to lighten up, and go into a mathematics-related field (finance, insurance, some business-field) that isn't graduate-level or graduate-research based? Family (Asian, of course) have been pressuring me to go into mathematical research (they refuse to admit it, instead pressuring me step by step, but I haven't been raised dumb to not be able to tell) as well as math professors across the board.

Any ideas on how to manage this burnout? The biggest thing, if anything, I'm wondering is whether its likely temporary (just haul through this semester, albeit with crappy grades, and move on forward) or whether it means I permanently need a different career ambition.

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The sad part is right now my grades are B's to C's... and I know for a fact that I am completely capable of getting A's if I'm able to devote 72 hours a week to studying, but if only I could care enough to put that amount of time in without drifting off and actually focus.