Hey everyone, I've been having a moral dilemma lately. I'm not sure if moral dilemma is the exact word. Anyway, I like doing math and delving into physics, but there is something inside of me, urging me to do something more important. While I do enjoy math, physics, I do not believe they are some of the more socially relevant things to pursue. I feel like I should be doing something more important. During my time as a math student, I have degenerated into an extremely competitive shell of myself. I have sold my soul for success. When did I become such a mercenary? Has anyone ever felt this way? I don't want the feeling to go away, I'm not asking what I should do, I'm just wondering if anyone can relate to this. I see so many horrible things in this world and I have a tough time just accepting it. While I also do see so many truly kind and decent things, the horrible acts get to me more naturally. One thing that always resonated with me was when I met some of the people who graciously awarded me scholarships in college and they always told me "Give back." I think it's time I start doing that. I have not had an easy road, but I have been extremely fortunate in my life. I have been given some good opportunities and I am very grateful for all this. Thank you in advance for reading this.