I have gone through various phases as a musician, from which my ideology of music has been established. The tragic thing is that my new ideology leads me to feel like never writing a song again. Phase one, stoked to be playing anything. Phase two, getting good, growing ego. Stage three, can shred on drum solos, and think I am the baddest that ever lived. Stage four, realize that the best drumming is simplified to a more pleasing level and the genus is in subleties, and in accentuating a song. Phase five, realizing that a song is only an expression of emotion and attitude. Phase six, realizing that my emotion and attitude (my music) is one big representation of my sorrow. Phase seven, beginning to dislike what my music represents and how it makes me feel, beginning to feel that skill is much less important than the person, their attitude, and the feeling they are expressing. I write these songs, thinking they are great songs, then when I listen to the recordings more than a couple of times, I get a huge sense of dread, and just delete the songs. Then when I am just having fun with my friends having a blast, I come up with awesome happy stuff. The sad thing is that all of these "masterpieces", that I thought I had, are to me, only a slap in the face, and a shameful display. Is depressing music bad for us? Should we be listening to music on the basis of what kind of positive reaction we have, ie. what kind of attitude it inforces on us?