I began to study mathematics in college because I was fascinated by the subject and have a naturally high degree of curiosity for it along with the rest of the sciences--but stress, depression and other factors take away that curiosity as I progress through each semester, leaving me bored, unproductive and unable to pay attention in class. Eventually, I burn out. In the past, my grades have suffered for this. How do I fix this? Is curiosity my problem, or do I just lack the mental discipline needed to complete formal education successfully? It seems that as I make more and more progress in advanced subjects like abstract algebra and other kind of "math done for its own sake", I will find myself unable to proceed unless I can maintain a high degree of curiosity for it--since, for me at least, learning higher math is not about getting a better job, proving a point or making more money--I just want to do it because I like it.