I generally feel somewhat happy with my life,but sometimes reality just hits you in the face, and you realize that you're most likely not going be able to do what you want to do , or be who you want to be. You just don't have the money , the upbringing,or the skills needed to do anything. You've just spend most of your formative years wiring your brain to procrastinate,and you want to end it all . How do you get the motivation back? How do get back that feeling of awe for universe? How do you rewire your brain to be better at what you like? The appropriate solution is to flush my dreams down the toilet , and live a life that's been lived a billion times before. Anything better? P.S By the way ,all this is motivated by how much I hate highschool,I don't want to go back, it's really a very depressing place. It's not a place for learning ideas,It's just for learning how to pass exams.