Ok so I go to high school, and as you know a lot of students there want to look "cool" and be "popular", the amount of people who concentrate on their lessons and grades are very low in this school. (Not a bad school, it's actually very good, it's got a very good reputation for computing, mathematics and sciences) so yeah back to the question, like I said, the amount of students who actually care for their future and getting a good career (or if any) are very low, and the people who do care are left out and bullied :/ my question is (finally), how could I overcome my fear of being bullied and rejection, especially in science? It's my favourite subject, along with maths, but I keep feeling that I'm going to do something wrong... Or that someone is going to say something that will hurt me :( I have had this in year 7, 8 and 9, I was bullied because well I didn't care for how I looked... The girls in my class where being nothing but horrible and the boys, didn't even look at me (not that I care about boys) but you see I was "socially unacceptable" or "an outcast". I think that a big chunk of me is missing, that I can't express my true personality or appearance without having a constant fear... When I had the bullying going on this girl I used to sit next to, she have me advice and told me what I could do to improve (my looks) and I did it, but later on (yr 8/9) I realised that I had forgotten about my academic life completely, I didn't care for anything, I talked back to teachers, insulting them, I was just a rebellious freak :/ and because of that, teachers thought it was concerning, telling my parents, we had long conversations, and when I went back I got the point they where trying to make, "focus on your schoolwork only an keep out of trouble".. I started to talk about science again to my "friend" and knowing that if I couldn't do it in class I could do it now, (because of my fear) but now I see that as soon as I became a "science person" again, less makeup more science, she would ignore me, she insulted me and a lot of other (nerds?) that we were just a bunch of lifeless freaks looking to prove something completely made up... :/ (irritating) she's religious and I respect that, not saying it's made up, and she thinks it's ok to say that to me? :( ok so yeah, I decided to leave that group and find people o more "like minded" "my type" and when I do, because of the previous years (yr 10 now) they think I'm only near them to make fun of them, they (all like minded) think that I'm just there to annoy them or insult them :(((( What shall I do? How do you think I should "befriend" like minded people? And how do I overcome this fear? :( I have seen a lot of people about this, police, psychologist, parents, teachers, counsellor, but they all say the same thing. I know this is just a matter of teenage hormones and blah blah but the thing is, this fear is driving me crazy! I want to get over it but .. I don't know what's holding me back... I don't even like to go outside anymore :/ this anxiety is becoming worser and worser :( I only care about my education and career and right now, my grades are dropping and are in really bad states ;(..