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So I'm currently taking 3 classes, one of which is Spanish 101, and I find myself on the verge of dropping it. I hate it. I loathe it. It feels like it's a mountain with no peak, and I'm just climbing forever. I can't seem to study more than a tiny bit because it's mind number memorization and I just shut down. Everything from the language to the exercises make me lost. (Like when an exercise says, "Tell your partner about a local restaurant. What do you like or dislike?" Yeah... I can't do those because I can't ever think of anything, so I can't do the exercise)
I work for 15 minutes on some notecards and it takes so much effort just to decipher what I'm reading and write it back down that I want to throw them into a nuclear furnace and watch them suffer. And I'm talking about the entire process. The reading, the deciphering, the putting the pencil to the paper, everything. It's all infuriating.
I've also got a plethora of personal issues I'm dealing with, including my ADHD and difficulty speaking, which obviously makes it difficult to do the oral exercises. (I know the words, I just can't get them out) I had to physically walk out of class one day a few weeks ago when my teacher tried to get me to interact with two other people and I couldn't even get out a basic introduction. I've been so stressed out by the class that several times during the last week I felt like I was about to break down and cry on the drive home.
I'd probably have already dropped it, but I'm using my Post 9-11 GI Bill to pay for everything, and if I fail I think I have to pay them back or something. Plus, I'm required to take 2 foreign languages for my major anyways...
I just don't know what to do.
I work for 15 minutes on some notecards and it takes so much effort just to decipher what I'm reading and write it back down that I want to throw them into a nuclear furnace and watch them suffer. And I'm talking about the entire process. The reading, the deciphering, the putting the pencil to the paper, everything. It's all infuriating.
I've also got a plethora of personal issues I'm dealing with, including my ADHD and difficulty speaking, which obviously makes it difficult to do the oral exercises. (I know the words, I just can't get them out) I had to physically walk out of class one day a few weeks ago when my teacher tried to get me to interact with two other people and I couldn't even get out a basic introduction. I've been so stressed out by the class that several times during the last week I felt like I was about to break down and cry on the drive home.
I'd probably have already dropped it, but I'm using my Post 9-11 GI Bill to pay for everything, and if I fail I think I have to pay them back or something. Plus, I'm required to take 2 foreign languages for my major anyways...
I just don't know what to do.