What in the world do i do now?? I've been reading this forum for quite some time now and there seem to be a lot of good advice so i guess that's why i registered here, because i don't know who to ask for advice this moment:( Sorry if i'm just coming 'out of the blue' this way As much as i'm ashamed and embarrassed to admit this, i feel i need some sort of 'guidance'. I just had the worst possibly first engineering year someone could ever have, to cut it short my personal problems washed over into my studies and i'm lucky i'm not in some hospital or on medication (seriously). I started my first semester off with a good start i guess, doing the homework, re-reading the notes, going to the professors for help, and like i just said my dormant personal issues got the best of me and next thing i know i failed two subjects, a first year math course and one programming course. I was so upset i didn't know what to do, but kept telling myself i'd repeat them the following semester and pass them definitely...i planned it all out in the first semester break, and ok i started second semester but no hope for poor me again, things spiraled out of control and next thing i know i FAIL the same subjects again unbelievable isn't it... Ok i haven't received the result of the two exams which determine my overall mark, but i'm confident i didn't earn enough to receive a passing grade. I'm just speechless now, very angry and upset with myself, i had the exams a few days ago and i really felt like crying leaving the university, and i'm not ashamed to admit that. I'm just revolted with myself, and what makes me even more angry is that i know my potential, i know how i can get high grades, i was the amongst the highest students my final year at high school and now for me to sink so low so fast is just humiliating. I didn't have problems understanding the work at all actually, i just lost touch of it. And they were both first year friggin courses!! It infuriates me. And the nightmare doesn't end there, i was reading the academic rules for the university and it clearly states that a student who fails 50% or more of their subjects the first time will receive an academic warning, if they do that again then they'll be refused enrolment the following semester....i've had this sinking feeling in me ever since those exams, i'm just waiting for some sort of notification that i can't enrol in any subjects. Although it also said students in that situation are given the option to fill out a form for permission to re-enrol, which then goes off to the executive dean of the faculty! Where i need to present my case and state why i have come to this situation, and i'm going to prepare all of that, but i'm not so confident i'll be given permission...which leads me to the main point of this all, what do i do??? No body in my personal life knows, i'm not telling my parents, nor friends, they will all tell me that they didn't expect this of me (i know some will relish this whole thing, to see me failing, the very same friends who use to hate it that i was better at them in high school), i didn't even expect it but it happened...i'm going to fill out that form, write up a letter and hope that the executive dean believes me because i'll have to reveal some very personal issues, but in the case that i'm rejected (in which case i won't be allowed to apply for permission to re-enrol until the following year of the same semester), what do i do?? I've had enough of all of this, and all the personal issues i had are finally beginning to go behind me for GOOD, but what if i'm rejected? What do i tell my parents, friends?? This has all set me back an entire year....all i have left to hope for is that this application will be given the ok to re-enrol and i pray that it does. Btw i live in Australia, if you're wondering about the weird semester times.