There's this girl from school that I really liked. Externally, we appear to be be opposites: she's emotive and extroverted, I'm reserved and an introvert; I was first in my class, she barely showed up; I'm going to major in computer science, she's practically a Luddite. We have very similar values, though, and a great deal of mutual admiration (although I didn't express it). She hangs on my every word, and always seems fascinated with me. Her kindness and ambitious idealism attracted me to her from the beginning. Anyway, one time she said she was a lesbian (not to me directly), so I thought that was the end of the possibility of anything between us, although I never seriously considered a relationship anyway. Then one day when we're alone she French kisses me, passionately, and tells me how good a person I am and says she hopes we meet again. I didn't respond much, overwhelmed as I was. A few days later we graduate, and I have her email as the only way to contact her. After some time I make sense of everything and write to her, confessing how much (and why) I like her, and how deep I feel our connection is. I also bring up my confusion as to what the kiss meant in the context of her professed lesbianism. I ask her out for coffee. It's conceivable that she wouldn't check her email in a long time, so I ask her friend to tell her, and she assures me she will. It's been a long time (almost a month) since then, and she still hasn't responded. I feel a certain desperation at the prospect of not seeing her again; she's the only one towards whom I've ever experienced romantic love. And now a relationship seems within reach, and I desire it greatly, whereas before I was largely ambivalent. If she has indeed seen the email (which it is still possible she hasn't), why hasn't she responded? Could she have been scared off at something I said? Or, as I sometimes fancy, could the kiss have been not a sign of romantic feelings, rather a parting gift, a way to "teach me" to open up to intimacy? She also has rather unconventional views of gender and spirituality, so that makes it even harder to interpret what happened. I'm so confused. That was my first kiss and the first time any girl has shown these kinds of feelings for me. Any advice would be much appreciated.