ice109 said:
i feel like I'm going to school and learning nothing. i feel like my classes facsimiles of a real education. don't scoff but it never occurred to me to look at other textbooks than those assigned for my classes and now that i have i realize how ****ty the ones I've learned from have been. i feel like i want to drop out immediately, restudy all the classes I've taken using better textbooks and never settle for a subpar education again. but of course this isn't really feasible. yes from now on i can and will do this but i feel like my foundational classes were terrible and resultant education is poor.
What year are you in? It could be that you just haven't covered the material in enough depth yet, but your personal curiosity craves that depth. If you're still in your first year or two, you'll get to more depth soon.
It may just be that your learning style doesn't fit with the lecturers styles. Realizing you can do independent reading to expand your knowledge in the areas that interest you is always a good idea. That is a large part of the college experience...taking responsibility for your own learning.
There's also a chance that there was nothing wrong with your classes, but you've just had one of those "Aha!" awakenings of intellectual development of your own that you are now ready to absorb material at a level that you didn't notice was being presented before.
Knavish said:
I know exactly what you're talking about. I'm not sure how far you're into your education, but I was fortunate enough to grab myself right after calculus and introductory mechanics. After I found Courant and Kleppner and Kolenkow, I felt outright deceived by my teachers; from then on most of what I've learned has come from my own will. Find time between your homework for your personal study, and use your breaks happily. After a while, it should be okay.

I was just talking with another professor here about precisely that. He was preparing for a lecture he had to give today, and commenting how he had so little time to cover the subject that he felt like he was lying to the students in order to simplify it enough to fit it in the time they have. We DO lie to student in the introductory classes; we have to. I try to point out when I'm doing that so it doesn't leave them bewildered later, but the reality is that we sometimes have to teach with the "and then a miracle occurs and you get..." approach because you need three more courses before you'll understand all the steps in between. There's a lot of working back and forth in the undergraduate years, getting a superficial survey of a subject, then getting more in-depth education that requires you know what the start and end points are from the intro course so you understand why you're following all those steps in between, then going back and putting it together and then going into more depth on some of those other in-between steps, etc.
Think back to how many lies you were taught in elementary school. They told you there were all sorts of rigid rules for things, and then a few years later, they told you about all the exceptions to those rules. There's really no way around this.