How to get motivated in higher math after struggling with proofs

[lolgarithms]

How can i get started on studying higher level math again? i got discouraged by proof exercises on the textbooks, i need a fresh start. i feel unmotivated on the subject i thought i loved. how can i motivate myself again? Just about any way to motivate myself would do.

also, could i have a list of textbooks on linear, abstract algebra, topology, differential geometry, real/complex analysis. i have realized that the list needs to start easy and FUN then on to the rigorous parts later.

But first i need a nice multivariable calculus textbook based on differential forms.

 

[NGC224]

I'd say start back with the basics. You know, what you find easy. Then move your way up.