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Two and half years ago i ran into some finance documentary and it really sounded interesting then read a book and i was hooked. Since then i follow markets consistently and i have read many books on finance and in process i ran into Quantitative Finance by reading a book called "The Quants" which i found interesting and soon realized that quantitative models are at heart of finance today. So set out to learn more about subject and found out that i really can't learn anything since i don't understand math used. I decided then(August last year) to learn more about math brush up my skills starting form algebra.

That didn't go as well as i planned, i slacked off most of the time with occasional outbursts of work. In the mean time i found out that there math major with focus on Statistics, Actuarial and Financial Mathematics which i thought i would find interesting and enjoyable to learn. Then after getting a bad grad in math class i told my self to either forget about studying math it or start doing math every day. I opted for the latter so i decided that for the beginning i do 2 hours of math every day for 30 days and after that period scale up. Actually i managed to succeed in my goal and after 30 days i upped to 3 hours a day. I did that for three days and decided to take one day off.

After that it went downhill(i wasn't motivated to do math for three hours) and after about 30 days i started to reflect on my experience. And it was mixed. There were times(especially at the beginning) where i felt optimistic about it and i felt excited about learning a bit more advanced stuff like Calculus and alike later on. But there were also times when i found it boring to graph bunch of quadratic equations one after the other or solving 60 factoring problems in the same manner. To be honest there were more days where i was bored by constant computation rather then i was excited to do bunch of exercises in the same way(there were also instances were i was excited to do even those not so interesting - like exercising liner equations for four hours and having fun at same time(wtf?!) ). It is really weird feeling for me because i feel when i am not doing exercise that i want to learn this stuff and that it seems interesting but when push comes to shove on part of me says that this isn't for me and that this doesn't really interests me. On one side i can't say i am the biggest fan of math nor school for that matter(i like to slack off), but on another side in last three years i was getting more and more interested in science mostly physics. Also i haven't pushed my self to do anything that interested me for 30 days a in my life. So i really don't know what to think abut this.

Am i overreacting and pushing my self to hard or should i just roll with it and give myself a little bit of space and let my self enjoy math rather then worrying about this? Or maybe math becomes more interesting after algebra? Or these things that i am experiencing, are signs that math is not for me? Anyway i hope that i haven't bored anyone.

Thank you!