Hi everyone this is my first time posting on this site. I'm feeling really crappy about where I am in school, and I thought I would see what you people think. So anyways, my first semester in college I was a music major at a pretty good conservatory. I was a good musician and I really only went into music because I was good at it. It was during that time that I started reading a book by Richard Feynman and I consumed hours and hours of videos by him. Long story short, I decided I wanted to change my major to physics. My second semester I came back home and went to a community college for a semester to get all my required credits I would need for transferring. I now go to the University of texas in Austin. This is where everything goes to ****. So for about that entire first year at UT I was really depressed, I didn't know anyone on campus, and I was completely oblivious about the million ways I could have gotten help that year. Unfortunately, when I got there is when I started to deal with some pretty nasty stuff from my earlier years. I went through Calculus with C's, and I got by in Mechanics. I took e+m in the spring but I dropped it because I was doing so poorly. The next year was even worse, and it was then that I realized that I needed some serious help and went to a therapist. Apart from working through various issues, I was diagnosed with adhd. That semester was a complete disaster for me and I ended up withdrawing from the school. In the spring, I took a severely reduced workload in hopes that I could learn how to actually do well in class, and then translate that to a heavier course load. So I have like 10 hours to account for my third year of college. So here I sit in my 4th year of college. I take responsibility for where I am, but I'm really scared for the future. Here's just a glimpse as to how ungodly behind I am. I'm taking a single upper division modern physics course, no lab(need diffeq credit), differential equations, biology, and an asian studies course. I have to wait until the spring to even finish up lower division coursework. So, barring any more screwups on my part, it'll have taken me 4 years to just complete lower division physics, one upper division class, and lower division math. This semester I'm really going heavy on the T.a. sessions and office hours in hopes that I can have some sort of support system through that. Also, I'm getting into a routine where I'm studying 4 or 5 hours every day, although I'm currently building up to that. I also don't have a good idea about what I would want to do with physics, so I would like to take this semester or year and talk to different professors about their research. I'm sorry for the essay. If you have any sort of advice whatsoever, I am all ears. Even if it's telling me to quit physics forever, I will appreciate it.