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Loren Booda said:At first (9th grade), pot seemed to help me displace my anxiety, gave me a social group, provided me with an identity, and amuse myself with mind effects. My buddies and I smoked morning, noon, afternoon and night. To pay for the stuff, we sold it. Unbelievably, I earned almost straight As, wrestled and rowed, created a unique math proof (which you can see at the website below), and was considered a leader of many circles at my school. I was encouraged to toke by most students and faculty.
I matriculated at Yale, where I found myself addicted to pot, socially inept, introduced to harder drugs, and eventually psychotic (which state marijuana has been found to exacerbate). I had average grades, but upon giving up pot in my sophomore year I could not concentrate, felt overwhelmingly paranoid and projected my thoughts upon others. (I had taken LSD during freshman finals - a very crazy thing to do, although I believed the stuff might improve my "thinking," otherwise just an underlying depression). I had to drop out of Yale.
I would give up the wild, hazy times in high school by declining firmly to smoke pot. All of this time I was looking for love. Today, 25+ years after quitting pot, I have stabilized my thinking and emotions, and have a great relationship. I cannot endorse substance abuse, and with my above response I was merely wishing to avoid some pain.
By the way, I'm a guy.
Lets' remember though that human lives are very subject to chaotic effects. I use to think about this quite a bit. I first smoked pot when I was thirteen. I never got into it, but if I had first tried it at a later time, who knows?
This applies in general to the idea of sending a message from the future to yourself. I imagine if it were somehow possible the results would be completely unpredictable. The person you are now is informed by everything you've experienced up to this point, including your "mistakes."
On a slightly different point, it's interesting that many people talk about not wasting time when they were younger. I have always had a complex view on this point, since I think that certain kinds of subjective experiences are more enjoyable when you're younger. People tend to retroactively think of their values informed by their current modal preferences and impose this "superior" point of view on the young. But the experience of "just hanging out with friends" can be infinitely more rich and rewarding at say the age of fourteen then such an experience is to a forty year old.
There is no absolute objective measure. Many people think the preferences of those who are older are better because they are "more informed" but this not so much a function of information as subjective quality. Since death is the ultimate outcome of life, a better measure of quality of experience is some balance between present subjective state and future utility.
Whereas taking heroin is probably a bad idea since it has clear future negative utility, the right balance between say, how much of your time at fourteen was spent studying versus engaing in social activities is less clear.
