Thankyou guys.
I suppose the thing is I am not afraid the floor will fall through because there is no evidence to prove it and no one is TRYING to prove it. So it dosent bother me. But it feels like there are SO MANY people trying to prove this quantum madness and some of them are kind of convincing. I know I can overcome this I have learned a lot about mental illnes in general esescially schizophrenia and can safley say that nine out of ten times it comes down to beleif systems or what you BELEIVE. If say I beleived in God and religion (which I dont) I would be terrified of going to hell for numerous reasons, I know I would obsess about it, that's part of my mental illness, but if I don't BELIVE in God in religion beyond a reasonable doubt then it dosent even remotly bother me.
When I was just hitting puberty many years ago I was terrified I was gay, not because I was gay but because I COULD be gay. It tortured me for an entire year of my life but it didnt end there I thought about beastiality, petafiliea, mutilated bodies and the thoughts horrified me not because the thoughts were inherently disturbing themselves but because they might have symbolized something awful about my emerging identity as a young adult. It was only until a thought like in "inception" a simple thought changed my life and saved it from that torture. I was actually free and happy for seven years, until recently of course.
The thought was that I could think whatever I wanted to, whatever the most disgusting thing that passed through my subcounciess was and you know what it wouldn't define me as a person, it was my actions that defined me. I was free to think whatever I wanted and the interesting paradox is when I allowed my self to think whatever I wanted I stopped thinking about the things I didnt want to. And that worked for seven years till now.
Six months ago I stumbled across quantum physics and to my horror and shock not only were all these people telling me that I can't think whatever I want, but they tell me that my thoughts somehow slowley become REAL?! and that SCIENCE PROVES IT!? This literalley drove me crazier than before. I mean I attempted scuicide because of it, I was hit by a car and hospitilized but when I explained what conseptuely bothered me everybody just wrote me off like they couldent even remotley relate to what I was trying to explain.
Then I thought maybe I should check my premisis, what I had convinced myself to beleive. Then I realized I was lied to, somone told me hell exists and I beleived them and hell is called quantum consciousness.
PS: Its like science with an agenda, the same people who want to prove that being gay is a genetic trait ignore the fact that natural selection would have weed that out billions of years ago. I don't have anything against gay people but oversymplifying human sexuality like oversymplifying quantum physics is giving people the wrong message. We have sex with anything that moves men, women, pies, pillows, sex dolls, animals that's the way man was made, but we ALWAYS have a choice on what we ACT upon.