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I'd like to start by saying I don't know if this is the right place to post this, but I feel this community will be able to help me more than any other regarding my issue.
I'm an Irish student currently studying undergrad theoretical physics in Trinity College Dublin. Growing up, I was somewhat interested in physics so I decided to take this path, but it turned out to be nothing like what I expected. Most of my modules are more in line with pure maths than physics. Not only do I find these topics hard to grasp, but I have almost no interest in them. I feel anxious everyday at some point thinking I chose the wrong course and feel trapped in this. I don't feel passionate at all about theoretical physics and looking back I feel like I wasn't even that passionate about it in secondary school. I had a deep interest in astrophysics in first year (equivalent of 7th grade) but it had waned by the time I reached the end of secondary school and only chose physics based on the fact that I used to be really into it.
Anyways, right now I'm in second year and the idea of doing essentially pure maths terrifies me as I feel I'll be pigeonholed into a path I do not want to take. Keep in mind, I don't mean to bash the field at all and know plenty of great people who love it, but I can't seem to find any sort of satisfaction in it.
I also find myself devoid of any free time since I'm always trying to figure out what's going on. My relationship with my friends and some family has taken a hit because of this and I feel like I don't have the time to attempt at things I want to do as hobbies like Brazilian ju jitsu or film making. Recently, because of this and the daily feelings of anxiety I stopped going to a lot of lectures and am not putting in anywhere near the effort I am supposed to be. I have tried to switch to general physics but can only do that in third year since in Trinity you have to do either biology or chemistry or Geoscience as well in the first two years and specialise in third year, so I'm missing a whole year of one of those modules. I can't switch to engineering or computer science or psychology either (other fields I'm interested in) since I would have to start from first year, but Ireland only covers fees for 4 years total so I'd have to pay full fees for the final year, which I can't afford.
Most people doing the course, although still finding it difficult, seem very passionate about it which makes me feel like I made a bad choice in choosing this course. Even if I switched to physical science in third year, I'm not sure if I'd enjoy it, nor do I want to do another year of this if I'm being honest (I don't mean to sound self entitled, I understand it's just one year but everyday I feel like I'm inching further into something that I'm not sure I can get out of in this course. I don't know if that makes any sense).
I'm just asking for advise really on what my course of action should be, it was poor of me to dive into this course without fully knowing what I was getting into, I understand.
I'm an Irish student currently studying undergrad theoretical physics in Trinity College Dublin. Growing up, I was somewhat interested in physics so I decided to take this path, but it turned out to be nothing like what I expected. Most of my modules are more in line with pure maths than physics. Not only do I find these topics hard to grasp, but I have almost no interest in them. I feel anxious everyday at some point thinking I chose the wrong course and feel trapped in this. I don't feel passionate at all about theoretical physics and looking back I feel like I wasn't even that passionate about it in secondary school. I had a deep interest in astrophysics in first year (equivalent of 7th grade) but it had waned by the time I reached the end of secondary school and only chose physics based on the fact that I used to be really into it.
Anyways, right now I'm in second year and the idea of doing essentially pure maths terrifies me as I feel I'll be pigeonholed into a path I do not want to take. Keep in mind, I don't mean to bash the field at all and know plenty of great people who love it, but I can't seem to find any sort of satisfaction in it.
I also find myself devoid of any free time since I'm always trying to figure out what's going on. My relationship with my friends and some family has taken a hit because of this and I feel like I don't have the time to attempt at things I want to do as hobbies like Brazilian ju jitsu or film making. Recently, because of this and the daily feelings of anxiety I stopped going to a lot of lectures and am not putting in anywhere near the effort I am supposed to be. I have tried to switch to general physics but can only do that in third year since in Trinity you have to do either biology or chemistry or Geoscience as well in the first two years and specialise in third year, so I'm missing a whole year of one of those modules. I can't switch to engineering or computer science or psychology either (other fields I'm interested in) since I would have to start from first year, but Ireland only covers fees for 4 years total so I'd have to pay full fees for the final year, which I can't afford.
Most people doing the course, although still finding it difficult, seem very passionate about it which makes me feel like I made a bad choice in choosing this course. Even if I switched to physical science in third year, I'm not sure if I'd enjoy it, nor do I want to do another year of this if I'm being honest (I don't mean to sound self entitled, I understand it's just one year but everyday I feel like I'm inching further into something that I'm not sure I can get out of in this course. I don't know if that makes any sense).
I'm just asking for advise really on what my course of action should be, it was poor of me to dive into this course without fully knowing what I was getting into, I understand.