So, I'm wondering, Suppose a couple years from now, I've applied to physics graduate schools, but I can't get in anywhere due to GPA issues. My physics GPA is decent, if not outstanding(mostly B+'s and B's so far. I'm hoping I can change those into A's next year, when I'm dealing mainly with physics and not with gen eds/math. I've got all summer, and I've finally realized that in order to learn physics, you need to do it and not just read it-I learn by doing, this I've recently learned-so, I'm going to take the books and practice), and I show a upward trend(partially based in reality as this year has gone better than last, partially hypothetical because I have yet to do junior year and it still needs to do better), but that just isn't enough. It isn't helped by the fact that I've gotten some bad grades in math courses, including a D+ in one this semester(I didn't see that coming... I've done better this semester than in previous ones, but then that one came. Stupid study skills, stupid proofy course... it sent me into a depressed, near suicidal funk yesterday. I thought I was done with that.) I've only recently gone on medication in the past month or two for those that have read my previous posts due to mistakes with dosage. In case anyone is interested: I do have research experience-and if I get lucky, a publication next year-but I do not see how that will help me if they throw out the application immediately. Have no idea how I'll do on the PGRE-I plan on getting a copy tommorow and seeing how I do. If I do badly, but start now(I don't take the test for nearly a year), I should be able to get a good score, as my guess is tests like that are more about practice than skill. What then? Should I try and see if I can get into a master's program somewhere? Try some backdoor routes? I know one guy who had below a 3.0 who was an undergrad here, but had a lot of research and managed to get into grad school here-and he was going out for general relativity of all things. But that being said, he stressed that he was an exception, and I know from experience that you should never count on getting lucky. Or figure out an alternative plan for my life? I'm working at a nanofabrication center over the summer for my research, and the guy I'm working says that with the skills that I already have/am picking up, it's possible to get hired there with a bachelor's. If I isn't happening, it isn't happening, I deserve it, and that's that. I'm not going to complain about it. But I'm not going to curl up and go away. Not yet. And regardless of what happens, I've made a vow... no matter if it is too late or not. I've progressed, but not enough. I turn 20 this summer, and I want to be a completely different person. Person before, person after. Call it stupid, but I have something of an obsession with age, and I'm trying to make this a milestone. Have no idea why I'm posting this part, maybe if I post it, I can remind myself that I'm going to do it.