Hello, everyone. This is my first post here. I've read some threads here in the past and I feel like this a place where I will be able to find people that are (or where) in a similar situation to mine. I posted this here because it seemed the most appropriate place to post it. Let me just point out that I'm studying Physics at university in an european country, Portugal. Due to the differences between my country's and the USA's education systems maybe some confusion with terminology related to that may arise. So here's the story (rant incoming...maybe?): I'm almost finishing my first year of university studying Physics... ...And I couldn't feel worse. I seriously think this year was the year I generally felt worse in my lifetime so far. Not terribly depressed, but unmotivated, sad, unenergetic, etc. Since two years back I've felt like Physics/Math was the only thing I could choose to study, because nothing more really motivated my rational self. On that I still feel like I'm partially right. However, I always feel more and more like Physics is the the area that I least dislike, instead of the area I like the most. I find myself not understanding most of the things the professors expose in theoretic classes and being unable to do the exercises proposed by them, but instead of that being a motivation to work harder to try and grasp the concepts it's almost like an automatic switch to a "why bother?" mode. I have fear of trying to do the exercises or trying to understand the content of classes, because I fear coming face to face with my own innability and intellectual incompetence. I always end up studying at least before exams, because I somehow feel obliged to by an "outside force", so I have managed not to fail at anything (so far); so although positive, my grades have obviously been pretty bad. I feel like this isn't something I like sufficiently to dedicate my heart and soul and to spend enormous amounts of my time working hard to accomplish something. Yet, nothing in my life really is. I like a lot of things, but I don't adore a single thing. Because of that, I can't dedicate myself just to one thing more than other things. I seriously feel like I'm just placed somewhere where there are neither paths clear for me to take or goals to aspire to. I have already done professional carreer guidance tests, so I know this isn't a matter of not being in the "correct" course(major, I think you call it?) for me. I've also been doing psychological therapy for some months now, and while it has been helping me with my emotional stability it clearly hasn't affected either my productivity as a student or my capacity to stop procrastinating and work in a positive manner. So I think my questions are: -Has anyone been in a similar situation? -Were you able to gain motivation? How? -Did your academic results improve because of it? -Did that make you feel better emotionally? Thank you for reading this, as I know it is quite long.