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CPearl
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Hello all, I'm new here. I'm at a point in life and in school where it's difficult to discern where I'm heading and what I should expect out of myself academically and professionally in the next few years.
I'm 23 years old and I didn't realize until the age of 21 what it was that I was passionate in. I find that I'm passionate in understanding the way things work at their most fundamental levels. That is: following the "why" trail as to things that happen.
At 21 I enrolled in college and I've been going for 4 semesters now, mostly catching up on stuff that I needed to retake as I was a very poor student in high school; not because I had difficulty, but because being a teenager got the best of me and making good grades seemed of no consequence.
I'm currently carrying a GPA of about 3.7, short of a 4.0 only because of classes that aren't geared towards science and mathematics. I have A's in: 2 Algebra classes, Geometry, Trigonometry, Astronomy, Chemical Calculations, and General Chemistry. I'm great at intuitively understanding relationships between concepts, logically working things out, memorizing formulas, and understanding their relevance. In other classes I'm doing well, but not so well as the ones that most would consider to be more challenging.
I find myself much more involved in classes that are quantitative as opposed to classes that are abstract in their less-specific ambiguity and broadness. I find myself trying to apply a scientific mindset to things that don't ask that mindset of me.
I want to gain the knowledge of our current understanding of the universe, and I want to help expand on it. I suppose my questions are: is my proficiency in the disciplines pertaining to science thus far representative enough of my ability and will it carry on, in other words, will I hit a snag at some point when the material gets harder? Is it easy to get burnt out on the material, is there a point at which it becomes, "oh damnit, just more pointless math equations"?
I'm not entirely well disciplined as a human being. My assertiveness, self-discipline, and health do not necessarily reflect a well-balanced lifestyle, and this is true in classes that I feel do not directly connect to science and mathematics, and yet science and math classes seem to be the exception to my lifestyle.
I know this post is perhaps long, drawn out, and broad.. but perhaps the best way I can generalize it is, given: where I am academically, and given my habits in life, does it get harder, and can I do it? I want to know how things work. I love learning about the fundamental interactions of everything and the language in which the interactions are represented. Despite my overall lackadaisical attitude towards life, is the pattern in my academic history of the sciences prominent enough to carry me onward, or should I make a change in life?
Thanks for your patience in reading this essay to this point, and any feedback and similar experiences or stuggles is greatly appreciated.
Hope you all had a happy Thanksgiving!
-Caleb
I'm 23 years old and I didn't realize until the age of 21 what it was that I was passionate in. I find that I'm passionate in understanding the way things work at their most fundamental levels. That is: following the "why" trail as to things that happen.
At 21 I enrolled in college and I've been going for 4 semesters now, mostly catching up on stuff that I needed to retake as I was a very poor student in high school; not because I had difficulty, but because being a teenager got the best of me and making good grades seemed of no consequence.
I'm currently carrying a GPA of about 3.7, short of a 4.0 only because of classes that aren't geared towards science and mathematics. I have A's in: 2 Algebra classes, Geometry, Trigonometry, Astronomy, Chemical Calculations, and General Chemistry. I'm great at intuitively understanding relationships between concepts, logically working things out, memorizing formulas, and understanding their relevance. In other classes I'm doing well, but not so well as the ones that most would consider to be more challenging.
I find myself much more involved in classes that are quantitative as opposed to classes that are abstract in their less-specific ambiguity and broadness. I find myself trying to apply a scientific mindset to things that don't ask that mindset of me.
I want to gain the knowledge of our current understanding of the universe, and I want to help expand on it. I suppose my questions are: is my proficiency in the disciplines pertaining to science thus far representative enough of my ability and will it carry on, in other words, will I hit a snag at some point when the material gets harder? Is it easy to get burnt out on the material, is there a point at which it becomes, "oh damnit, just more pointless math equations"?
I'm not entirely well disciplined as a human being. My assertiveness, self-discipline, and health do not necessarily reflect a well-balanced lifestyle, and this is true in classes that I feel do not directly connect to science and mathematics, and yet science and math classes seem to be the exception to my lifestyle.
I know this post is perhaps long, drawn out, and broad.. but perhaps the best way I can generalize it is, given: where I am academically, and given my habits in life, does it get harder, and can I do it? I want to know how things work. I love learning about the fundamental interactions of everything and the language in which the interactions are represented. Despite my overall lackadaisical attitude towards life, is the pattern in my academic history of the sciences prominent enough to carry me onward, or should I make a change in life?
Thanks for your patience in reading this essay to this point, and any feedback and similar experiences or stuggles is greatly appreciated.
Hope you all had a happy Thanksgiving!
-Caleb