Greetings, I just transferred from one CC to another this past summer, my grades were horrible and I had so much F's that I was no longer allowed to enroll for the classes I need. So I saw the counsellors there and they told me to stop doing that major. Well the reason I have been failing in college isn't what my major is, it is a combination of low confidence and giving up easily. And it seems like an irresponsible side of me takes over. I am also guilty of escapism, instead of studying for an important exam I would just play a computer game. Its something I felt powerless to do anything about. And its been made worse as my transcipt got more F's in it, now overshadowing me forever. My GPA is so bad that I've spent a lot of time considering whether to just give up college and become a janitor. After I transferred to SMC, my bad grades initially began reversing. Let me start with physics 21. I failied the class three times, that's three times. And every time I'd get an F its because I'd quit trying in the class after getting A on the mid-term. My attendance become bad, I put work off til later, and seek escapism. In SMC I took the Physics class in summer session and got grade A so easily I astounded my whole class. But I will tell you guys honestly, I only got the grade because the session was so short, if it had been 12 weeks I couldnt have done it. I was working a lot better when I knew it would soon be over with. I still missed a couple days I needn't have though. Now I have completed physics 22 as well and got B. Despite B my instructor told me that he knew I would have been "easily" able to get the best grade in the class from the second week, and he was very disappointed in me. These are the hardest classes at SMC, and I had it in me to easily ace them. But I turned into the worst student in the class towards the end and I finally did incredibly poor on the final compared to what I should have been able to do. I have tried to stop doing it myself through willpower for several years and I dont think I have it in me. I feel destined to fail over and over because I dont have the necessary stamina to go all the way. So please if you have had similar stories please share how you were able to finally kick your bad habit and make something of yourself. I'm out of ideas.