- #51
Preator Fenix
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I would react quickly to press the red button.
But at the last possible moment I would hold myself back. I would see the eyes of every gril I ever loved and made love to, I would see my father, my brothers who I care for very deeply, I would see my little two year cousin, his big brown eyes, I would see the faces of the countless millions of people who I have never been able to see, the happy and tragic lives all intertwined on this planet, I would remeber the endless nights I spent looking at the stars, or listeing to really good music, or read a good book, or of when I learned a thing or two about science of the intersting things I've read here on these forums, I would remeber the jokes the gaffy stoires the many youthfull wacky adventures, the times I cheated and lied and hurt others, the times I have been selfish, I would also remeber the nights I cried, the heartaches and the great losses, all those times of heaviness, then I would see my future self, in a slightly more rugged leather jacket then the one I use, with my white hair, looking at me intently knowingly forgiveningly, as my grandchildern came tuging at my legs, and lastly I would see the eyes of the woman that I love in this life, her prefect dark brown eyes and hold myself in wonder at how little I could even begin to describe to you how perfect they are, how impotent all my wisedom stands to the love I feel for her, and how very little I really know about this wondering thing called life...
And as I took my finger of the big Red button I tell myself;
surely if there is a man that can push this button,... it is not I,... walking quietlly and humbly from the great temple wishing I had never had to face such a choice.
But at the last possible moment I would hold myself back. I would see the eyes of every gril I ever loved and made love to, I would see my father, my brothers who I care for very deeply, I would see my little two year cousin, his big brown eyes, I would see the faces of the countless millions of people who I have never been able to see, the happy and tragic lives all intertwined on this planet, I would remeber the endless nights I spent looking at the stars, or listeing to really good music, or read a good book, or of when I learned a thing or two about science of the intersting things I've read here on these forums, I would remeber the jokes the gaffy stoires the many youthfull wacky adventures, the times I cheated and lied and hurt others, the times I have been selfish, I would also remeber the nights I cried, the heartaches and the great losses, all those times of heaviness, then I would see my future self, in a slightly more rugged leather jacket then the one I use, with my white hair, looking at me intently knowingly forgiveningly, as my grandchildern came tuging at my legs, and lastly I would see the eyes of the woman that I love in this life, her prefect dark brown eyes and hold myself in wonder at how little I could even begin to describe to you how perfect they are, how impotent all my wisedom stands to the love I feel for her, and how very little I really know about this wondering thing called life...
And as I took my finger of the big Red button I tell myself;
surely if there is a man that can push this button,... it is not I,... walking quietlly and humbly from the great temple wishing I had never had to face such a choice.
