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RelativelyEmma
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Hello! Sorry if this is kind of long:
I have an autoimmune disease and my grades occasionally struggle and sometimes I have to drop a class or two (though the dropping is more rare). I've been set on physics since I was 12 and love all my classes but here's the thing: between struggling with my autoimmune disease, budgeting, insurance issues (my medical costs are around $33,000 per month for treatment and they get kinda annoyed with that but I don't really have much of a choice), and not being able to be a college "kid" (living on campus with a meal plan and being basically spoiled), and a sick close relative, it's been difficult. I was also told by my advisor my first year that it would be find to try and have a full-time job in college (you can guess how that semester turned out). And in the last two years my disease has been more aggressive so I've tried to cut my classes a bit and am now part time.
Recently things have been okay, I've finally gotten into the department as a junior after being sent the engineering physics route and being rerouted quite a bit by advisors who just don't seem to understand my love for the subject.
I recently found out that someone high-up in undergraduate physics stuff has put together essentially a list of students they think will succeed in getting their degree and are sent to a specific advisor. Guess who's not on the list? Yeeahh that's me. I also found out one of my friends from the class who's just gotten into the program was also added to that advisor's list. They weren't rerouted through engineering physics either, getting to go straight to the actual physics classes.
I feel like no matter how hard I work and how much I love this stuff, I can't seem to make those who are supposed to be supporting me, well...support me. Lately I've found this really discouraging.
What do I do? I don't want to give up on my dreams, but I feel like I'm lacking so many things that would make it more attainable.
I have an autoimmune disease and my grades occasionally struggle and sometimes I have to drop a class or two (though the dropping is more rare). I've been set on physics since I was 12 and love all my classes but here's the thing: between struggling with my autoimmune disease, budgeting, insurance issues (my medical costs are around $33,000 per month for treatment and they get kinda annoyed with that but I don't really have much of a choice), and not being able to be a college "kid" (living on campus with a meal plan and being basically spoiled), and a sick close relative, it's been difficult. I was also told by my advisor my first year that it would be find to try and have a full-time job in college (you can guess how that semester turned out). And in the last two years my disease has been more aggressive so I've tried to cut my classes a bit and am now part time.
Recently things have been okay, I've finally gotten into the department as a junior after being sent the engineering physics route and being rerouted quite a bit by advisors who just don't seem to understand my love for the subject.
I recently found out that someone high-up in undergraduate physics stuff has put together essentially a list of students they think will succeed in getting their degree and are sent to a specific advisor. Guess who's not on the list? Yeeahh that's me. I also found out one of my friends from the class who's just gotten into the program was also added to that advisor's list. They weren't rerouted through engineering physics either, getting to go straight to the actual physics classes.
I feel like no matter how hard I work and how much I love this stuff, I can't seem to make those who are supposed to be supporting me, well...support me. Lately I've found this really discouraging.
What do I do? I don't want to give up on my dreams, but I feel like I'm lacking so many things that would make it more attainable.
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