Hello everyone my name is Nick and I live in Western Australia. I have lurked this forum for a while now and have decided to sign up to tell you my story and ask for some advice. I apologise if my story is long winded but i will need to tell it so you can all understand my predicament. Ok, so I'm 24 years old and have deferred my undergrad in Bachelor of Arts (political science and philosophy) from the University of Western Australia. Back in high school I was an under achiever. I had personal issues in high school with health and also normal teenage stuff with drugs, fighting and what not. I was always very bright but never applied myself and always took the easy route. However, my entire life I have always been a seeker. My parents say that even at a few years old I would just pester them with the question 'why?' All the time, you know the cliche's, why is the sky blu? Why do I have to do this? What's the point? I always have to understand the deeper meaning behind everything I do. Another point to note is that I always sucked at math. I couldn't wrap my head around math every time I attempted to learn it it was like a brick wall in front of me. Having said that I was always a natural with humanities subjects - politics, English, history, law everything I could get my hands on. S I was an under achiever academically but of above average intelligence... I was reading books on ww2 and Germany, political theory and legal theory etc. but I always avoided maths and science. By the time I left school (I graduated but did not do TEE which is the route for university kids) I worked for a few years doing odd jobs and really not knowing what I was doing in life, but after leaving school my thirst for knowledge increased and I was consuming books as fast I could get my hands on them and eventually found a back door entrance into the top university of my State. I've done a year and half of political science and philosophy and as easy as I found it (and enjoyable) I was left a little disappointed. I have always craved certainty, facts. And in the Humanities every subject is my opinion versus your opinion, and you may be wrong but if you can argue better than me it doesn't matter. I always thought my ideal profession would be to go on and do grad school Law after politics, but I'm disillusioned with it all, especially as I don't like the fact that my areas of interest have no real worl applications... Even if I study law and become a lawyer I'm not going to be able to build a house like my father! or service my girlfriends car, or any other simple every day things a man needs to be able to do in this world. So craving this certainty and practicality I started studying science on my own, and have devoured many popular science books on chemistry, physics, molecular biology, synthetic biology, evolutionary health (paleo diet) and more. I have discovered a world I never knew existed because I never gave it a chance. I now really regret not applying myself in high school to math and science. Anyway I applied to go back to UWA to do a bachelor of Science, which I have been accepted to do pending my completion of a 6 month Maths bridging course to meet the pre requisites. The University linked me to an online Maths tutor to get prepared which I have enjoyed but am still at an elementary level (fractions, decimals etc) though I plan to apply myself to a lot of study for the next few months to teach myself as much as I can. On to my question. The subjects I like the most in Science are Chemistry and Physics (but probably chemistry more) and In engineering I like E.E and ChemE. I think they would be the areas I would want to study, ChemE and Chemistry together more than anything. But in browsing this forum and doing my homework I have come to the conclusion that Chemical Engineering and Chemistry is HARD! It seems that even guys/gals who are naturals with Math and Science struggle so am I biting off more than I can chew and should I just stick to what I'm good at? Or can I, through struggle and sheer grit and determination develop my mathematical and problem solving faculties and manage the work load and change the trajectory of my life into an area much more rewarding? I obviously have not been exposed to much maths and definitely no natural but surely if I apply myself and spend hundreds of hours studying I can become good at it? Any help/suggestions or questions would be much appreciated, thanks!