I'm in the US. I decided just to look for another job. I don't want to report my adviser, again. The situation is pretty complex. I'd rather just resign on fair terms. Seeking revenge will probably make matters worse. There's more to it than the financial thing, but that felt like the last straw for me. It's not the first time it's happened, and I've been miserable working for him for awhile.
I think my resume is okay. I know it's not the best. I lack relevant experience. I have research experience, but it's pretty weak, in my opinion. I often have a hard time trying to make it sound worthwhile, but I try, and I suppose it's better than nothing. I have an equivalent amount of teaching and tutoring experience. My undergraduate GPA is 3.66. My graduate GPA is not so hot. It's currently a 3.2. However, it should increase, possibly to 3.5, before graduation.
My adviser wants me to publish this really obscure thesis, but I don't have much faith or interest in it. I don't feel like showing up to the lab anymore. I can work part time at McDonald's and earn the same, have a steady paycheck and experience less pressure. So, there's no incentive to stay. I was talking to professors in other departments, and almost started working with this dude in optics, but I decided to stay in this lab, thinking that publishing that paper was more important. But after this incident, I regret it.
Maybe, I can volunteer in more interesting research next semester during my TA assignment. I don't think an obscure paper that I doubt is publishable is all that important. Maybe, I'm wrong, but in any case, I don't want to force myself to continue doing something I don't like when I'm getting paid scraps for it in some unpredictable manner that is causing me more stress than it's worth.
I'd really like to shadow a few other professors around campus during my TAship to get a feel for what I actually might enjoy doing, instead. The department head knows that my adviser has not been treating me fairly. He already hired me as full time TA next semester. I don't even have to be a full time student, and I'm only teaching two labs. So, I will have extra time and extra money. I just need to get through this month. Good looking out, department head.
At least someone around here is helping me out. The physics and chemistry department heads really do care about the students. I can tell that. Not all of the professors do, though. So, I am thankful that I have a relationship with the heads. The head of physics comes back from sabbatical next semester. It will be good to reconnect with him. I consider him more-so my true adviser than my so-called adviser. I wanted to RA with him, but the dude went on sabbatical.
Things will be better next semester. With the thesis out of the way and stress levels down, I can focus on the qualifying exam and gtfo of here. I failed it the first time, because I didn't study. But, I feel like I will have a greater purpose once I get out of this lab. I'm actually excited about working at McDonald's or some place like that and trying something new. Literally, anything is better than that lab.
So, I've wrote my life's story. I'm glad people here were interested. These discussions are therapeutic. I appreciate you guys and/or girls (unlikely) hearing me out. I'm sure there is a lesson to be found in my experience.Zap.