Blop said:
Background: I live in the U.S. and I am in 7th grade, 13 years old. I have mild ADHD
I don't really hate math, per se, but I can't help thinking that I'm unfit to do anything related to mathematics. I enjoy geometry and abstract scientific problems, but struggle in areas such as basic equations and terms. Everything just seems like it flies over my head, and despite people praising me as a good thinker and philosopher, I feel deep envy for people who understand math and people who can be in high-level classes, because I find physics fascinating (even though it takes mathematical prowess). I always panic when confronted with math homework, and my mind goes blank.
I feel like I need motivation to do better.
How you describe yourself and your dislike of math, you sound a lot like my younger self... I think you may have just had bad (or merely uninspiring) teachers. I myself definitely had mostly bad ones as a teenager. Incidentally, when I was 13, outside of geometry, I sucked at math, especially algebra, which made me not like the subject either.
I was simply never interested in doing the problems, only in learning and thinking creatively about the concepts. In fact, the only 'good' math teacher I ever had growing up, was also when I was 13; he also liked to talk about concepts and applications, but his main focus was having us finish the problems and pass the tests.
In fact, he knew how bad I was at subject, even though it interested me conceptually, yet he almost single-handedly managed to kill my interest in the subject in the following way: he turned me down in a creative moment, in which I had finally also mustered up the courage to walk up to him and ask him to give me his opinion on something quite curious I had seemed to have discovered.
You see, instead of doing the problems in class (graphing functions), I was trying to understand the properties of different kinds of graphs. Geometrically, I rediscovered something about points in such graphs (which later I would learn was called 'a derivative at a point'); the teacher looked at my work for a bit, remained silent and then told me "forget about it... just focus on finishing the homework problems".
This response practically killed my interest, and as a result I actually failed math class that year. Actually failing math bothered me so much (I had never failed anything before), that the next school year, at 14 years old, I forced myself to confront the subject head on and kick the crap out of the subject by finishing all the assignments as quickly as possible after we started a new chapter in class; usually this took a week or two to do.
As a consequence I had so much free time over in math class that I had extra time to think about math conceptually, eventually even philosophically from first principles, purely from my own thoughts (NB: this subject is called 'foundations of mathematics'). My math grades also started to improve slowly from failing grades to passable levels.
However after about 6 months of this, something clicked in my mind: I had a revelation, it was as if the floodgates had opened and suddenly I understood almost everything that was thrown at me mathematically. My math grades jumped from average to exceptional; curiously, simultaneously almost all my other grades dropped from exceptional to very good.
To make a long story short, at the end of high school my abilities in math made me fall in love with physics (
read about it here if I haven't bored you to tears yet). To make a long story short, I went to university in order to study medicine and become a medical doctor, but before long ended up getting a degree in physics as well.
So, young man, my message to you is to never give up the hope and don't be afraid or cautious, neither in the face of difficult math or of having to handle failure! Endure and who knows, you might even end up getting rewarded in ways that you cannot even imagine yet.