mr1batman said:
actually after some comments i knew that i just understand the summary
i need maybe years to be qualified to understand the theory these years is just about maths so maybe 2 years or maybe 5 maybe 10 we don't know
but i challenged myself to understand this theory before i finish my school which is in the range of 4 years
In summary, there is
no reason to give up just because you haven't conquered it all yet. You already have done far, far more than most people of your age, and as some of the replies point out you have far more time than the rest of us and you have a head start over most people of your age. Don't rush; just make certain that you master what you can, then each time use what you have mastered as a basis for getting further.
You won't understand it all after school, or after University, but no one does. Science is not about understanding everything, it is about understanding more and more, and often in more and more different ways.
Yes,
do try to improve your English with your reading and correspondence, but
do not be embarrassed because you still have English to learn -- most of us cannot speak Arabic as well as you already speak English; you have nothing to apologise for.
An English Poet, John Donne, wrote about the start of the 17th century :
On a huge hill,
Cragged and steep, Truth stands, and hee that will
Reach her, about must, and about must goe;
And what the hills suddenness resists, winne so;
Yet strive so, that before age, deaths twilight,
Thy Soule rest, for none can worke in that night.
You will probably think that looks more difficult than GR and that Donne couldn't spell, but that doesn't matter. Think about it from time to time till you are comfortable with it.
That bit of poetry is to me one of the most inspiring hints at the way to understand the exploration of science and learning of science: You cannot do it all at once, being right every time; whenever you get stuck, get past the problem by looking at things in different ways.
Yet, don't waste time, keep going while you are alive, because afterwards will be too late.
Meanwhile you have a life to live, and understanding can make it a lot more worth living.
Good luck and have fun!