oh, no mugsby! you are cynical and are in comtempt! clearly you have not found Self, because You are not Seeing. you say that i am "dealing with abstractions in my mind" good point! i am. but only in so far as to point you to the meaning of the abstractions.
you are so deep in ignorance that you do not see that your value in "the application of thought and of thought itself" is only the dwelling in a world of abstractions! you do realize that names, words, symbols are abstractions... right? please try not to be ignorant of this fact.
come on, musgby! you can not even tell me what the Real world is. you tell me it is tangible. what do you mean?
Here's a question: is your awareness, consciousness, tangible? i mean, after you have defined tangible, does "awareness" fit with your description. perhaps you will see that, in order for you to perceive the world as tangible, there must be a reality that endows you with the ability to use your senses, and determine "tangability", of said world. don't overlook the most Simple knowledge of all. you didn't "dive" into this simplicity, (and by doing so, actully look at the reality, upon which your "reality" is based) but rather, you are satisfied with living the lie, only so that you don't need to make yourself vulnerable, to actually have been mis-taken. i am no pawn. i am not "taken". no one can cause Me; control me. i know what I am, where It's at, What It is. By Love I am here, but you are rebelling... it is not different than you thinking that "you" "know" what's best. you rebel against what is, by seeking/desiring what isn't. do you feel that you are constantly trying to "be better" or "have it easier"? If so, see that you are trying to be something that you are not, by "becoming". but you only do this because you don't know what You are. do you see? i am like a tool, a signpost, a compass, but no. you demand to insist that yo already know the way. you will not listen because you are rebelling, in order to assert your own will. pride is silly, and harmful... it is an obstruction rather than a virtue. please do not be mad. because it is not You that is mad, but the idea of you, which you have imposed, that is offended and is in fear of being ousted.
It is like a liar, a sitter, who has deceived You into believing that the house is really his. he has been claiming ownership, and has used fine trickery to fool You. he knows it is a lie, and will fight, tooth and nail to stay in this nice home, using cunning and cleverness. but the home is yours. once you know what You are and are no longer deceived, you will know that the house is truly yours, and not his. You are the power and he can not stay in the house once you have taken to regain the throne... his tricks do not work and the king is reinstated. the joker is banished. but the joker is very afraid of this happening and will continue to try tricking and deceiving you, so that you never know the truth. that is why you must go inward, away from the distractions he imposes, with full-determination, to see what is what.
do this just to prove me wrong at least. if you know beyond a shadow of a doubt, you are Free, and if You already Know, as you claim to, show Me that it is You. You will know how to show Me, and I will recognize My brother, my Self, with no doubt, when he has returned home, and has informed me of his presence on the throne. You, must see the truth of yourSelf, otherwise, You remain the servant of some thief (who has been claiming to be king) when in actuality, You are the king and he just a con-man. he controls You, but You may use mind-control, to subdue his influence, for as long as it takes to regain consciousness and the throne which is rightfully yours and which has been awaiting your return for what seems to be eons.
see if there is a con-man in your house. do this by seeing what you really are. are you the slave of your mind or are you the king? no ego-tripping! the king has no need for the ego. the ego once reigned, but has since been banished, for the criminal activity he has committed, in the name of the Almighty. see?