ME or Physics?
Hey y'all;
So, I'm pretty passionate about engineering, but I also have a very profound love of cosmology and theoretical physics. So I guess my big question is; Physics or engineering?
As a note, I'm currently about to start my second semester of college, so I'm a college freshman at BYU (as I understand it, the ME program here is pretty well respected, but I haven't heard anything about the physics program here being particularly outstanding).
Now, back in high school, I got Martin Schweiger's Orbiter and did my own research of various aspects of orbital mechanics (such as Hohhmann transfers and geometric simplifications of ascent and powered descent trajectories) and learned the mathematics and engineering to design propulsion for vehicles for various missions; and they often worked (specifically Delta-Velocity requirements for various missions). Although Orbiter doesn't extend to it (actually, all it really simulates by default is trajectories and propulsion) ; for fun I'd often design many over-arching aspects of the vehicle, including life support, power source, vehicle layout, flight deck layout, etc, often taking extensive notes from the design of existing vehicles like the Apollo CSM and Space Shuttles (much like a systems engineer). The impressive thing is I did this all on my own in 11th grade. So saying I love aerospace/astronautics might be an understatement (when it was time for Physics class to make water bottle rockets, I was the one with the three-foot tall high-fidelity Mercury-Redstone replica with a motorized parachute deployment system, while everyone else had a few 2-liter bottles stuck together xp).
However, there's a catch: the only people I could really work for are these coming-up private companies (such as SpaceX), and I'm worried working for them takes for granted that I'll be a workaholic with no time for hobbies and family, and I'm not too fond of being in an office all day and having a boss I have to fear. NASA might be more lax, but I'm not sure I'd be so happy dealing with beaurocracy and I find the enterprising commercial progress to be far more attractive.
Now, as for physics; I can see myself teaching a class, and honestly, I feel a bit sad at the prospect of missing out on higher physics classes in getting my engineering degree. Furthermore, I can't help but wonder if I'd be working easier hours.
And to top it all off, I can work hard, but I'm honestly getting a bit scared by all the; "It's very very hard" comments. I can take hard work, and my university offers the option of taking 6 years with a 4-year degree, but I really doubt I can take something where I'll be only getting 4 hours of sleep for a week and spending every waking moment working. The picture I keep seeing get painted makes me think of my brother going into investment banking, and I absolutely don't want that kind of absolutely insane workload (he works 18+ hours a day). Am I worrying it'll be worse than it is, or is it really that bad? And I keep wondering if physics would be any easier. Would an ME degree be as bad as investment banking?
This being said, though, engineering does come to me naturally. It fits perfectly with how I think, in all kinds of analysis and mathematical formulation, together with practical application in systems, so there is the possibility that ultimately I won't even mind all the workload of getting the degree because it'll essentially be things I enjoy so much I did them for fun in high school (of course, "the next level up" so to speak).
But the possibility of a more lax lifestyle is also something I find very attractive in physics, though a big part of me thinks I'm probably entirely wrong about that; that a physics career would be just as, if not more stressful than engineering, namely because even if the hours and lifestyle are easier (a big if), there's also more stress about getting a decent job. Come to think of it, I may be entirely deluding myself with the thought that academic physics leads to a more relaxed lifestyle than the office environment of engineering, by imagining physics as being like Einstein exploring theories on a chalkboard from his home on Long Island, or his initial work being done in his free time as a patent clerk. Come to think of it, that view is probably entirely errant, isn't it?