I am in the process of being diagnosed myself, everyone I have seen so far has said the same, Bi Polar, but unfortunately with rapid cycling.One of the things they believe may be a symptom is the 'ghosts' I see. I am not adamant they are ghosts or anything, I just know that wherever I live they are, I hear and I see them. These have4 always been there since my teens, I'm struggling with the fact that if I start the meds they want and these 'ghosts' disappear then I will know that part of my life wasn't actually real, despite me physically seeing and hearing them, and to lose the high points too, they are fun, yes my friends think I'm loopy, but its me, the lower side is a whole different side, a&e seems to be familiar with me. I've just left hospital yesterday and have appointments every 2 day till I see the psychiatrist again on Thursday and I get quite anxious around these times. But will these medications just numb me, and take away what makes me? Any help, advice or knowledge would be greatly appreciated.