Hey there, As an undergrad first year, physics has been great but I have some dilemmas of what I want to do. I want to go into research/ academia but it seems as though, despite me getting good grades, I don't necessarily get some concepts straight away, to the point I'm self conscious in my abilities. I would tell myself "why didn't i get this the first time".... I would think i'm kind of a perfectionist, setting high standard for myself, but i want to see someone else's perspective. I would like to know if, for all you PHD students/ academics, how undergrad was for you guys and should this deter me from this. Was it easy for you....?