(Let me start by saying this: I am not good at math, nor have I ever been. What I want to do is simply an experiment and nothing more.) First off, I just had this crazy idea to teach myself Calculus out of seemingly nowhere. The question I have is, what tools and resources do I need. And also, how much patience do I need to learn everything that encompasses an AP Calculus BC exam? What do I need to understand and familiarize myself with, and is getting books enough? I plan on getting a study guide for the AP exam, and any other calculus guides I can find. The highest level of math I've taken class-wise is Algebra II, which I did terribly in. I believe it's due to my lack of motivation and internet addiction personally. I was never one to study for a higher purpose beyond myself. Independent studying fascinates me. What I want to know is, if it's possible. Also, can someone not even in a Calc class enroll for an AP exam? Thank you in advance.