I'm already in grad school and I have my last shot at applying for the NSF. The first semester of my grad school was going great until a death in my family to someone I was very close to. I unraveled and my grades sunk. Just not that bad, like I overall passed my classes. However, I am sure it doesn't look good. I really do not want to talk about it. I really really don't... however I can. I mean I am just barely getting better. I feel like spending time to explain this would cause me to go back and think about those moments, and get sad all over again. I wish this wasn't the case for me, normally I am a very hard worker. I just never had this kind of loss before. :/ I have a good chunk of the personal statement written, but still more to go. Thank you for any advice.